oh my gdness.andy has good taste in music.lol.

he sent me anna nalick's breathe (2am) and you don't see me by josie & the pussycats.

totally refreshing honestly. really pleasant on the ears.

went out with simon yesterday...caught failure to launch at suntec. its damn freakin corny, but overall it was quite nice. i think sarah jessica parker is damn hot larh...woah. and that hunk of a lead actor, Matthew McConaughey. but he's really old. but wth, it doesn't really matter anyway. lol.

was so great catchin up with simon yesterday, just like old times, but i guess in our case, old times haven't changed much, and i would never want things between us to change anyway. one of my confidantes and someone who speaks his mind each and every time. he was right there beside me when i bumped into him. i was in well..a state of shock for like a few hours, haha simon can testify to that and he did his best to cheer me up with his interesting theories. thank you! i guess it hit me just out of the blue, just when i least expected it to really, and i wasn't prepared for it. but even if i was mentally prepared my reaction would have remained the same.

was hard larh really, i've tried so very hard to push all my emotions away, but this is where i end up at. square one. the more i try, the harder it is. ultimately, it doesn't take any trying at all absolutely, so i'm just hanging on till that day comes, when i would think back and say, i'm glad, very very glad, with a smile on my face. :)

i sent an sms to xuan and wen the other day, which made xuan tear after she read it.. im glad she understands, and it means more to me than anything else in the world. i'm extremely grateful for that.
it went like this : 'you know, just six months ago i was awaiting the day he would come back.. The day when i could receive him at the airport.. The day i would be so happy jus to see him.. The day i would jus jump onto him and hold him and laugh til there's tears in my eyes..'

i looked at the sms again, with a sort of wistful look on my face, and smiled to myself sadly.

-...i dream a world where you understand...-
-...i dream a million sleepless nights...-
-...well i dream of fire when u're touchin my hand...-
-...but it twists into smoke when i turn on the lights...-

cos you don't see me.